So, before I delve into the (more recent) meaning behind the title, let me just say I love my sister. I realize this picture, in which I'm clearly attempting to thwart her attempts to crawl, might lead you to believe otherwise, but I promise, it's all good these days. I'm not really sure what was up in this particular shot...maybe I was just mad that my parents were dressing me in suspenders (no, really, guys...what was up with this wardrobe choice?). But obviously I was busted, on film nonetheless, trying to keep my sister down back in the day, so, that's a little embarrassing.
My rebellious streak continued well in to kindergarten, when I was busted for my monopoly on the play doh "restaurant" in my classroom. I have apparently never been a fan of delegation.
After my otherwise kind kindergarten teacher chastised me, I kept much more on the straight and narrow (if you think I'm joking, you obviously don't know that I went to an all girls' high school and lived in fear of our headmistress and her propensity for dispensing demerits).
So in the spirit of full disclosure, this past Thursday, I bucked my long-standing trend of relatively upstanding behavior and I ate out. Yes, I tumbled right off the proverbial Lent wagon. It was far from glamorous. No, I fell hard. Right in to a big old plate of Paolo's spaghetti alla bolognese (yes, I actually make a mean bolognese myself).
I could make excuses (there was a lot of wine involved, I was still traumatized from the rotten potato incident, I've been punishingly stringent with the rules up until now, etc), but there's no getting around the rapid descent from the original Lenten guidelines.
Listen, I'm not proud of it, but, it happened and I have spent plenty of time feeling guilty over it. More importantly, I can't take it back, so I see no point in apologizing excessively or trying to explain it away.
I still know why I decided to try this adventure in the first place, and I've clamored back up onto the wagon.
PS--I actually did some time-consuming cooking this weekend, maybe in an attempt to clear my conscience(?). I made spaghetti and meatballs for a friend's birthday Friday, and baked what turned out to be a tasty blueberry buttermilk cake for girls' dinner Sunday.
Get right back on that wagon and keep going, dear. You'll make it to the end in just over a week! You can do it!
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